Apa yang terjadi hari ini

hari ini kencan pertama ku dengan bahasa indonesia.

semua begitu lepas, kita merasa begitu dekat. dan merasa begitu nyata.

mungkin ini yang dinamakan dengan nyatanya hubungan. tak terhingga, bahkan saat aku menulis ini, aku masih saja tersenyum puas. tersenyum bebas dan tersenyum penuh rasa cinta.

hari ini aku merasa tidak ada orang yang seberuntung diriku. tidak ada orang yang punya rasa cinta sebesar rasa cintaku.

tak menyangka ternyata dia seindah itu. tak menyangka ternyata dia begitu bercahaya. tak menyangka dia adalah duniaku saat ini.

The Only One, thanks for today my dear. thanks a lot for what you have given to me. I love you..really2 love you...

Rasa ini tak akan tergantikan.... :)

why do you love me?

that question came from her mouth.. she said "why do you love me?"

Love is a feeling. sometimes you know what you feel, sometimes you don't.

for me love is untold and unexplainable. it's just so wonderful to have this feeling. it's a lot more that what you have expected. You will feel blessed with this. It's something that you heart won't lie about.

it's weird, isn't it? but it's true....no one could deny this.

the question is, why??? when you have a question that is using "why" it will need a reason, except for this question. there are reasons, but you can't explain those reasons.

my answer is "I don't know". She just keeps sticking here inside and won't come out. Do I love her because I know that she's the perfect one? "I don't know". One thing that I know is she's the one for me and the only one.

When I can't answer "why do you love me?" question, does it mean I don't really love her? Of course not. If I don't love her, why do I always think about her? why do I always put her name in my pray?

I think someone who can answer "why" question is making a bullshit words. I think I will never be able to answer "why" question.

Next, how can you approve your love? this is a tough question. I can't answer this question either. All I know, I have tried to give everything that I can give.. I have tried to show everything that I can show. I have tried my best.

Will she know that I really love her? hmm....she's the one who can answer this. not me, not the others.

I belive someday she will know that I really love her...from deep inside...and all of that also because I believe that I can prove it to her...

I love you dear...really love you :*

How I Met Her

where should I start?

well, namanya mira. management internasional 2010.

kita kenal di ELS, because she was my student. saat itu dia ada di pre advanced B class. belum ada rasa yang

timbul sampai di saat kelas kita hampir berakhir tiba-tiba aku merasa ada yang berbeda.

since she's in the same major, and eventually I have a class that she takes also, so I have a reason to ask her number then : to borrow her material.

setelah beberapa hari akhirnya kita mulai

bercerita tentang hobby dan yang lainnya. kitapun menemukan persamaan, sama-sama hobby masak dan makan :D. sampai pada suatu saat dia bilang kalau dia lagi bikin cup cakes and kesal karena hasilnya kurang bagus. lalu aku bilang "why don't you let me try that cup cakes?" and she said "Okay, I'll bring it to you tomorrow after the class"

itulah pertama kalinya kita bertemu di luar kelas dan makan bareng. saat itu dia sudah berada di advanced class.

setelah itu kita keep in touch lewat sms, ngobrol setelah kelas di ELS dan akhirnya sekitar 3 minggu yang lalu, hubungan kita semakin intens lewat sms. kita mulai bercerita tentang masa depan, cinta dan juga pengalaman manis dan pahit.

dia selalu mengingatkan soal puasa senin kamis, selalu mengingatkan waktu sholat dan bilang kalau sholat subuh itu tidak boleh tinggal, walaupun bangun telat harus langsung sholat.

Akhirnya aku berfikir, inilah dia. She's the one...she really is the one. sampai minggu lalu kita janjian untuk keluar makan.

she said "why do you want me to go out with you?"

I said "nothing" just want to a

sk.

she said "what if I don't wan

t to?"

I said "if you don't want to it's okay. it's your decision right?"

she said "seems like you're not really serious in asking me out, because you don't really care if I want it or not"

I said "I really really really want you to go out with me"

she said "really really really??why why why???"

Dan pada akhirnya kita sepakat janjian setelah ujian berakhir.

sampai akhirnya kemaren

Kita pergi ke pizza hut. kelas jam 5 aku cancel karena harus bertemu dengannya. kita bicara sampai sekitar jam 7, dan kita harus pergi karena aku ada kelas jam 7 dan kebetulan hari itu aku menggantikan tara untuk ngajar kelasnya mira.

perjalanan dari PH ke ELS terasa sangat lama dan akhirnya di jalan itulah :

"mira, you know that I like you right?" she said "as a sister, yes"

"what if I don't want you to become my sister" "what if I want you to become someone else"

She said "like what?"

"maybe I want you to become someone sp

ecial" she said "what do you mean by special"

"you know, someone that is so special to me, the first girl" she said "and then?"

"to become my girlfriend I mean" she smiles and said "what??what do you mean?"

"would you like to be my girlfriend?" she said "do i have to answer it now?"

"No you don't have to, take your time"

akhirnya kita memulai kelas advanced dan berjalan seperti biasa. just like nothing is happening between us.

setelah kelas berakhir, I said to her... "take your time" dan setelah itu dia dijemput papanya.

malamnya sekitar jam 10, aku kirim sms "thanks for going out with me tonight, and I couldn't believe I've said that to you"

she said "I was so surprised you would say that to me"

I said "I don't know what's next"

she said "You know I'm not a perfect girl, I'm afraid I will disappoint you someday"

I said "You know I'm not looking for the perfect one, I have thought about it and I'm sure with what I did"

She said "I want to ask you, do you like me, or do you love me?"

I said "I don't just like you, I have this feeling in my heart for you. I love you but I'm afraid that word is too strong so I don't wa

nt to say it"

she said "Seems like you're so sure that I'm good for you, why?"

I said "sometimes what heart tells us is something that we can't explain"

she said "what do you expect from me?"

I said "nothing but you accepting me as how I am now"

she said "are you sure, can I trust you?"

I said "I am sure and I need your trust"

she said "you have to promise me and not to break your promise"

I said "I will, I do"

she said "so tell me why I should be your girlfriend?"

I said "you're the one..."

she said "hmmm...."

I said "does it mean yes????"

she said "do you want me to say no???"

I said "of course not"

terlalu panjang yang kita bicarakan malam itu...dan terlalu singkat waktu terasa. tanggal 16 maret 2012 aku resmi melepas masa jomblo ku :D

she said you have me now and I have you now... :)